I am never alone.
On the rare, and somewhat monumental, occasions that I am, I almost don’t know what to do with myself. Preprogrammed like a channel of reruns, I tend to replay the elements of my typical day, not easily slipping into the opportunity of “me” time with the simple grace I’d like to be capable of.
There are moments where I wish life was wrapped up and under my control, but I also want openness and ease. I crave certainty, but I’m most alive when life unfolds in messy and beautiful ways.
Like many people, I hope for a quick fix — a magic pill that lets me leap over difficult circumstances. This is the craving of my small mind. When I listen to the big mind of my heart, I find wisdom: I only grow if I do the hard, honest work, knowing I’ll begin again and again.
“I believe in magic. Subtle, everyday magic. Each morning before I give myself a chance to to doubt otherwise, I smile knowing that this day is laced with wonders, and it’s my plan to focus on finding them.”
– “Mining Magic” by Suzanne Robbins, Bella Grace Issue 7
When I started working on the Grace Notes Blog Hop in March, I was a beginner to the process. It was my first time coordinating anything like this and truth be told, I was a little nervous. I wanted this blog hop to be just as inspirational as the Bella Grace Blog Hop hosted on Somerset Place. I also wanted to have it be reflective of the kinds of heartfelt narratives found in the pages of Bella Grace, and to showcase the fantastic stories that readers could discover within Grace Notes. In retrospect, I didn’t need to be nervous. There was an indescribable kind of magic in the air that I trusted to guide me. By believing in that magic, I knew this blog hop was going to turn into something very special.
We’ve all had those days — maybe even weeks or months — where absolutely nothing seems to go right. Your morning toast burned, your car wouldn’t start, you spilled your coffee all over yourself … and it’s only 9 am!
When those days happen, it’s important to look at what did go right, even if it’s just the tiniest of things. Holding tight to those small victories can quickly change your mindset. Here is a list of my favorite victories worth celebrating.
As I balance my left foot and move into tree pose, I anchor myself as if a life-giving root sprung suddenly between me and the ground.
I look up and see myself in the mirror, confronting the person I see: she is more in tune with her mind. Her heartbeat and breath have become the measurement by which she estimates herself. She is alive and breathing, the clock that moves her towards mindfulness.